Yeah, Baby!

Back in late April and early May I started having vivid dreams. It was like dreaming in HD. I also had the urge to "test" for seemingly no good reason. I held off until May 4 when I had been having cramps for a day and a half but nothing else "normal." Sorry if that's TMI. I had the afternoon off from school, so I stopped to buy a test. I couldn't wait until the next morning, so I held it (which is really hard in early pregnancy) for the four hours (by the time I got home I think I only had two and a half to wait). I took the test and left the bathroom. Just as I was going back in to look, Ryan walked in the door. I had no idea he'd be home from work early, but it was perfect that he was! At 2:45 we walked into the bathroom together. I sort of hid behind him, and when I saw the a line in both windows I jumped up and down and squealed! Ryan hugged me and laughed. He gets more and more excited everyday.

Of course you all know by now my first pregnancy symptom was acne. Sigh. I really didn't want to admit it was the pregnancy for a few reasons. First, it would have meant that it would be around for weeks. Second, it would have meant there was little I could do to fix it. Third, I could face this with every pregnancy. But, finally, a couple of weeks ago I admitted to myself (with the help of the naturopath telling me) that it was the big hormone shift. Here's hoping it's just a first trimester thing! It continues to improve (s-l-o-w-l-y).

My morning sickness and tiredness waited to show up until I was done with school. I am so glad because I've really been a big baby about it. I take naps, eat snacks, play tetris, and watch reruns of Boy Meets World. I've started to have a bit more energy, and after this week, the house is starting to look decent again :) One of the best foods for me to eat that satisfies me and is relatively healthy is bananas, so Ryan has started calling the baby "Monkey."

Spiritually, this has been amazing. Instantly, so much hurt disappeared. It was a huge relief because I was so afraid that the hurt and jealousy that I'd struggled with for so long would stay and ruin my pregnancy and even my time with my baby, but it left because God's timing is always perfect. This is not to say that it was a sin to hurt or to long for a baby (the worry and jealousy were sins, though). I just want to assure all of you out there--no matter what the struggle--that God's timing is perfect if you are giving the situation over to Him and inviting Him to be Lord over it.

We told our parents by putting a picture of the first ultra-sound with a frame that said "Happy Father's Day Grandpa!" in our dads' Father's Day cards. We mailed my dad's. I guess my dad was concerned with reading his card first, but my mom could tell it was a picture of an ultra-sound and kept telling him to look at the insert! He kept refusing, and she couldn't take his present out of his hands, so she had to be patient. It makes me laugh to picture it! We got to hand deliver the news to Ryan's dad. He looked at the insert right away and showed it to Ryan's mom. Both were glowing! Ryan's mom's reaction was everything I hoped! Surprise (maybe even disbelief at first), smiles, near bursting out of her skin. I knew she wanted a grandchild about as much as I wanted a baby :)

I am so thrilled you all know now! YAY!

Jordon

P.S. Ryan and I can tell I'm "showing." So, we expect the rest of you will be able to tell in a few weeks. Ryan keeps patting my tummy. Happy eye-roll!