This weekend, I had yesterday (Friday) off. I had planned on cleaning the house. I started cleaning the house, but the cold I started to get on Tuesday night tired me out. I spent most of yesterday, and all of today, on the recliner watching movies and reading.
All of this to say, my house has been cleaner. Often, I look around at my house and see only the messes, and I make mental to-do lists. I should wash white clothes and my sheets. The whole house needs vacuumed. I should really finish that quilt I started. I have dirty dishes and dirty tissues piled on the floor beside me that I should pick up. How long has it been since I've washed the windows in the bathroom? Forget the windows! Mold is growing in the crack above the tub again....
Just a little bit ago I looked up (from the recliner) at the sun coming in the kitchen window shining on the table Ryan and I bought shortly after we moved here. I see colors I like, good memories, and comfort. There are messes, but they aren't the big picture. Overall, I really like my house.
My life is the same. There are messes, but they aren't the big picture. I get so focused on Ryan being gone or my longing for a baby that I can convince myself that my life is awful. I forget to step back and look at the whole picture. I have a husband whom I love and who loves me. I have a job which I believe is important, fun, and fulfilling. I am an important part in the lives of many teens as their teacher, youth leader, or friend. I have family whom I love and who loves me. I have a house in which I enjoy living. I have dear friends who God put in my life for just this time in my life. All these blessings, I have and more!
Perspective is huge isn't it?
I love you all and thank you for being a part of my good big picture!
Jordon
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