I Wish Ryan Were Here ... and God is Enough

Bonus! You get two blog posts for the price of one :)

Okay, Part 1, so Monday...July 4th...
I wished Ryan was home because I didn't want to mow the lawn.

I wished Ryan was home because if he had mowed the lawn, he wouldn't have hit the gas pipe that goes from the tank to the house like I did.

I wished Ryan was home because he would know what to turn to turn the gas off and stop the leak. (I was very thankful for a guy who lives in town who came and shut it off for me! I was also very thankful for my neighbor, Mike, who came over and fixed it right away.)

I wished Ryan was home to figure out how to relight the pilot light on the water heater. (I did do it myself, and it does feel good to know how to do those things.)

I wished Ryan was home to go with me when I went to hang out with people. I often feel like an outsider or a third wheel. (I am very thankful for the Liston family who did not make me feel like an outsider.)

This one's really, really brutally honest! I wished Ryan would have been home when I found out my sister had her baby...because if Ryan were home I probably wouldn't be babyless and wonderful news like that wouldn't be bittersweet.

I wished Ryan was home to take care of me when I had my first migraine. He would have been wonderful!

I am not trying to be grumpy or bitter...just want to offer you a chance to see what some days can be like for all military wives, not just me! And, again, I want to say that I am THANKFUL for the people in my life who make it easier.

Okay, Part 2 happened before Part 1 :)

I've been reading--slowly so I have days to think about each concept--Lies Women Believe and the Truth that Sets Them Free by Nancy Leigh DeMoss. One of the first lies is "God is not really enough." I realized that I have been filling my and covering my hurts with movies and food and facebook, so I took Sunday off from all those (I ate only meals not snacks.) It was SO GOOD. God is enough. God and I had some great talks. I really felt refreshed and restored. God knew I would need that refreshing because He knew what was in store for me the next day! haha Anyway, it is something I want to do more often--maybe every Sunday--to help me really think about God and how He is enough and so much more than movies, snacks, or facebook could ever be.

Jordon