***Update*** Thank you for your prayers. I felt like I had been prayed for. Even if you pray late, I think it still counts...time doesn't work the same way for God as it does for us. It still wasn't a perfectly easy day, but I felt everyone had genuine concern for Ryan and I. It was very appreciated!
Pray for me today, Dear Friends. One of the hardest things to do when Ryan is gone, is go to gatherings. I have a wedding and graduation party to go to today. I will see many family and some friends who I love very, very much. I just feel like I don't fit. I feel like half of me is missing. I am used to school functions without Ryan. I am used to church without Ryan--mostly. But, getting used to be around my cousins and sisters who have their husbands and kids with them is really hard.
Walking into my parent's church on Easter, I was holding my nephew, Henry. Mom told me to give him to Jenna because she needs her "security blanket." Mom was referring to the fact that Jenna has always been very shy. Mom views me as very secure, so I don't blame her, but inside I said, Jenna has two other security blankets. My security blanket is in Iraq. Why can't she share this one with me?
I realize there might be some untruths in my feelings, but this is how I feel. So, please pray for me, because, actually, the issue is even deeper than this, but I am not ready to go into that yet.
Thank you,
Jordon
Psalm 108:12-13 says, "Give us help from trouble, for the help of man is useless. Through God we will do valiantly, for it is He who shall tread down our enemies."
ReplyDeleteI read these verses this afternoon and was so encouraged by them. I pray they will encourage you as well. Usually my wrong thinking is my enemy. I couldn't help but be reminded of that as I read your blog above. I'm praying God will give you victory over wrong thinking and that He will comfort and encourage your heart as you continue to sacrifice time with your hubby for the good of our country. Love you!